Thursday, September 27, 2007
at a lost state
Stress? nv did i want to admit im stress. Until now, im saying im stress.So many things happened.
what exactly am i going to do?
Often, i gain things that i desire. And when i gotten it. i failed in others.
im scare.
afraid of losing lots of things.
afraid of losing my frenz.
afraid of losing my post.
afraid of losing my family.
afraid of losing what i have.
afraid that i cant do what i wanted.
Why that i cant be more thoughtful?
And when i think its enough. is it exactly enough?
Why when i tried balancing everything out.
it failed terribly.
now when i look at things.
it asked me.
What the hell are you working so hard for?
What the hell do you think you can achieve.
Who the hell do you think you are.
What the hell do you want?
i had no idea.
what i want.
im moving aimlessly.
no clues of why people wants attention.
attention everyone desires.
*the current state*
[curse and swear.]
[raise the voice.]
[shared a thought.]
[Ended terribly.]
